Truthfully

Truthfully, I miss you. A lot. And it hurts that you don't care or notice. And I really just want to get over you and move on, but that takes time. And people think it doesn't, which is all the more frustrating.

Truthfully, it's scary that I'm not nervous for finals. My mind was done with school back at Thanksgiving, so finals could be really bad. I need to learn to like school again.

Truthfully, I don't want a couple of my friends to go on missions because I'll miss them too much. But please, don't get me wrong, I'm totally proud of them and of what they are doing!

Truthfully, I like my new driver's license picture. It's a good one, which never happens!

Truthfully, it doesn't feel like Christmas yet. Maybe it needs to snow. Maybe I listened to Christmas music too early so I'm desensitized to it now. Maybe I should go Christmas shopping. Maybe I should watch Christmas movies and decorate my apartment.

Truthfully, I love Divine Comedy. I love laughing...and glow sticks.

Truthfully, I really want to do a study abroad. I want to travel to different places. I want to get out of this country and see things in a different way. I want to experience life at its fullest.

Truthfully, I just want to sew all day long. I want to finish all of my projects. I want to feel the relaxation and enjoyment that it brings.

Truthfully, I want to accept things that are happening. I don't want to feel weak.

Truthfully, I want to know why talking about feelings is so taboo.

Truthfully, I love cheesy Christmas movies. All cheesy movies, actually.

Truthfully, I can't wait for January 2nd, when the new Pretty Little Liars season starts.

Truthfully, I don't know how to end this post. So....the end.

Up All Night

Gah...I have no idea why I am awake at this time of night...or morning, seeing as it's 1am now. And I really should go to sleep, but I can't for some stupid reason. So I just keep watching Pretty Little Liars, freaking myself out with every creak in my apartment.

But anyways, while I'm up I figured I'd write to you people a bit. So yesterday I went and got my license renewed (because I'm turning 21 in 3 days!!!) and I got all dressed up, did my hair, did my make-up extra nice because I had to get a good picture on my license. I mean, this is the picture I will have on my license until I get married! And who knows when that will be...it could be a very long time! So it needed to be good.

But you know the thing about the DMV?....when they sit you down to take your picture, they don't count down, so you could be halfway through a sentence and you'd never even knew they took the picture and BAM, you're stuck with worse than a mug shot.

Thankfully, I noticed this in line and so when I sat down, I smiled the whole time, just in case. And what do you know folks? I got a decent picture! What a great way to start off my 22nd year of life. :)

P.S. Happy birthday to my EFY brother Matt!

Stupid

You know what really sucks? Missing someone a whole bunch, and then realizing that they don't miss you a single bit. Just sayin.

I SURVIVED!

Hooray! Hooray! I just finished taking my anatomy lab final- I am done! I have officially survived the lab portion of the very feared, yet loved, class that is anatomy!!

I don't really know how I feel about the test, but I do know that I now have like 10 spare hours that I don't have to be spending learning terms and working on the cadavers..yay!(although I actually really enjoyed learning from the cadavers...holding a brain was SO cool!)

And not to mention I feel all smart now, knowing words like vestubulocochlear nerve and sternocleidomastoid and epiploic appendages. :)

Seriously though, anatomy is awesome. I'm so glad I got to take it this semester.

I hope your week is going amazing! The sun is shining, we're halfway through the week and next week is THANKSGIVING! Hooray!

Peace and blessings my friends, peace and blessings.

This is a pretty accurate description of my life at the moment. It's so interesting to me how we all have such big plans for our life, and how we have expectations for what things are going to be like and when they are going to happen. But life is never how we expect it to be, and that's kinda scary.

I had such a sure idea of what this semester was going to be like. I knew what I was doing, had a pretty good idea where I was headed, and was looking forward to several events that happened this semester. In case some of you didn't know, I can be a tad bit of a control freak. I like to know what, when and why things are happening, and when they don't go like I think they will, it can be kinda stressful for me.

But the thing is, I'm not in control.

God is.

And I just pray that someday I'll be able to just let Him have complete control, with faith all the way.

But you know what? I'm grateful that He is in charge. He knows what's best for each of us. He can make us become more than we ever could have even dreamed on our own. He shapes us through good and hard times, and brings people into our lives that we never would have expected.

So here's me, putting aside my fears and expectations. Here's to the rockin roller coaster that is life. And trusting that through God and because of God, everything will be okay.

Today is a Special Day!

I know it's a super old picture, but this pretty much sums up my awesome mom.

Happy happy birthday to my favorite person in the world! My mom!!! She is just such a great person, and I'm so blessed to have her in my life. She is crazy and fun and is a mother to all of my friends, which I love. She is so selfless and is always willing to help anyone she can. She is considerate, patient, loving, trustworthy, happy, talented, and just all around incredible. She really is my hero and such a great example of living a Christ-like life. I love you mom! Happy Birthday!

What hard work will bring you

I'm sitting on my couch, listening to beautiful Christmas music (say what you want, I don't care, I'm gonna listen to it anyway!), just pausing for a few minutes in the midst of my homework to celebrate the fact that I got a 94% on my Anatmony test!!!!!! AHHH!! I'm seriously so excited! This semester hasn't been the easiest to say the least...and neither have been my grades. And I've been studying non-stop like all week long, but it paid off!!!! Hooray!!!

And speaking of hard work, I ran my half marathon last Saturday! And I finished in 2 hours and 19 minutes! I have to say that it was A LOT harder than I thought it was going to be, but it was worth it...even though I literally was walking like a pregnant old lady for the next 3 days. haha. But I'm serious...people got some good laughs out of my inability to walk. I'll try to post some pictures soon.

I look back a how far I've come and I'm amazed. Two years ago pretty much to the day I was running the Snow Homecoming 5K, and I was dying, and now look at me! Running half marathons, triathlons, 10Ks, and running for fun! Ah! Love it! I can't help but be a little proud of myself.

Anyway, totally random post, but life is great! Love it! :)