Truthfully

Truthfully, I miss you. A lot. And it hurts that you don't care or notice. And I really just want to get over you and move on, but that takes time. And people think it doesn't, which is all the more frustrating.

Truthfully, it's scary that I'm not nervous for finals. My mind was done with school back at Thanksgiving, so finals could be really bad. I need to learn to like school again.

Truthfully, I don't want a couple of my friends to go on missions because I'll miss them too much. But please, don't get me wrong, I'm totally proud of them and of what they are doing!

Truthfully, I like my new driver's license picture. It's a good one, which never happens!

Truthfully, it doesn't feel like Christmas yet. Maybe it needs to snow. Maybe I listened to Christmas music too early so I'm desensitized to it now. Maybe I should go Christmas shopping. Maybe I should watch Christmas movies and decorate my apartment.

Truthfully, I love Divine Comedy. I love laughing...and glow sticks.

Truthfully, I really want to do a study abroad. I want to travel to different places. I want to get out of this country and see things in a different way. I want to experience life at its fullest.

Truthfully, I just want to sew all day long. I want to finish all of my projects. I want to feel the relaxation and enjoyment that it brings.

Truthfully, I want to accept things that are happening. I don't want to feel weak.

Truthfully, I want to know why talking about feelings is so taboo.

Truthfully, I love cheesy Christmas movies. All cheesy movies, actually.

Truthfully, I can't wait for January 2nd, when the new Pretty Little Liars season starts.

Truthfully, I don't know how to end this post. So....the end.

Up All Night

Gah...I have no idea why I am awake at this time of night...or morning, seeing as it's 1am now. And I really should go to sleep, but I can't for some stupid reason. So I just keep watching Pretty Little Liars, freaking myself out with every creak in my apartment.

But anyways, while I'm up I figured I'd write to you people a bit. So yesterday I went and got my license renewed (because I'm turning 21 in 3 days!!!) and I got all dressed up, did my hair, did my make-up extra nice because I had to get a good picture on my license. I mean, this is the picture I will have on my license until I get married! And who knows when that will be...it could be a very long time! So it needed to be good.

But you know the thing about the DMV?....when they sit you down to take your picture, they don't count down, so you could be halfway through a sentence and you'd never even knew they took the picture and BAM, you're stuck with worse than a mug shot.

Thankfully, I noticed this in line and so when I sat down, I smiled the whole time, just in case. And what do you know folks? I got a decent picture! What a great way to start off my 22nd year of life. :)

P.S. Happy birthday to my EFY brother Matt!